Every day of my life is different. Most of the things I do and the people I see vary from day to day. There are consistencies day to day as well. Sadly, one of the consistent daily themes are those moments of self-doubt I experience as a parent. I find that the older I get and the longer I parent, I tend to doubt my abilities more and more. I doubt that I can help my children heal. I doubt that I can bring hope to their lives. I doubt that I can replace the dark things they have seen and experienced with light. I feel powerless.
The devil is the author of lies and the enemy of hope and healing. He doesn’t want restoration, he wants chaos. He wants the pain and darkness to grow. And that nagging voice I hear in my head saying that I can’t do it is not from the Lord. It is from the devil because the doubts I experience are lies. The voice that says that I can’t do it is satan trying to get a foothold because the Lord has empowered me for the journey he called me to.
I will always leave the door open for the devil’s lies as long as I am trying to bring hope and healing to my kids based on my abilities. I will always leave room for him to work as long as I try to parent in my own power. The reality is that I don’t just feel powerless. I am powerless.
There is joy in that realization because the Lord gives strength to the powerless. He gives power to the weak. I will always have doubts as long as I trust myself, but only when I understand that I am unable to parent my kids well apart from the Lord will the doubts fade. He is my strength and power.
Lord, I spend too much of my time trying to do things in my own strength. Help me understand that you are the source of my power. Without you, I am nothing and cannot help my kids. Let me ignore that nagging voice of doubt and rather hear you say that you believe in me. Help of the helpless abide with me.
In Jesus name, Amen
“He gives power to the weak and strength to the powerless.” – Isaiah 40:29 (NLT)
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